stalking is a MUST

kau betul2 buat aku kecewa

2009-12-28T10:20:00.000-08:00

tadi aku keluar lepak ngan membe yg mmg da lame gle lost contact..
mmg best gle la sbb da lame x jumpa..so,sume cte kuar.
da seronok2 bercerita..tbe2 aku dpt plak cte yg x seronok d dgr..
spoil mood je.huh..membe aku tanye ko still ngan tut ke??
pastu sku tanye mane ko dpt tau aku couple ngan tut tu?
then die ckp ade HAMBA ALLAH nie yg bgtau.die cte lg..die tanye HAMBA ALLAH tu cmane aku bley couple ngn tut tu?dgn selambe(nadau gurau kononnye) HAMBA ALLAH tu jwb'ntah..da die tu je yg nk kt die'.ble aku dgr muka aku trus berubah..segan plak ngan membe aku ni..
yela x sangke plak kwn yg aku anggap kwn baik ni ckp camtu sal aku an..aku tau la bf ko tu hensem orgnye..tp x perlu la ko nak ckp camtu sal membe 'baik' ko sendri an..
nant pe plak membe aku ni pk..membe baik mengutuk membe die sendiri..
haishh..

2009-12-16T07:49:00.000-08:00

i miss the OLD you:-'(

2009-11-20T01:08:00.001-08:00

now u dun even bother to contact me like u used to do before..
im wondering y..
you've changed..
i miss the old YOU very much..
hmm........

2009-07-01T04:42:00.000-07:00

since smalam lagi aku da rase yg makin hari mulut aku makin takde insurans..
sebabnye lately nie aku sedar aku da byk sakitkan ati org2 dgn kata2 ku yg bak kate sorg mamat nie 'makan dalam'.
kadang2 tanpa disedari n kadang2 disedari hanya selepas aku meluahkan kata2 itu..
tapi sayangnya xde pe yg aku leh buat sebab aku mmg mcm tue..
mmg jenis ckp lepas..
pe yg aku leh wat ialah hanye cuba untuk control supaya benda yg sma x berulang lg..
kepada kawan2 yg terasa ngan aku,AKU MINTAK MAAF DARI HUJUNG RAMBUT SAMPAI HUJUNG KAKI..

p/s: cakap direct or menyindir..mane satu lg sakit??

I AM SICK

2009-06-24T09:32:00.000-07:00

im sick of living in KEDAH..
im sick of living around those people who fulled with their own agendas..
in sick of being too kind to those people who i think don't deserve it..
im sick of lying myself for being hypocrite most of the time..
im sick of your childishness..yes YOU..
im sick of everything in KEDAH

ONE THING I WILL NEVER SICK OF IS BEING MYSELF..
THE TRULY UMI FARHANAH BT MOHD NASIR..

confession

2009-06-09T11:34:00.000-07:00

everything is over now..
i know i've ever hurt and done something wrong to u my fiend..
it's just that i dont have the strength to seek apology from u from heart to heart.

SORRY FOR EVERYTHING

im not like u

2009-06-09T05:44:00.000-07:00

I stood by you
I didn't have to
And if I knew
I'd go away

I'm not like you
I don't back stab
My dear you should be better than that

Sorry if I never call like you did
And you know, you know
You don't really have to
I try to come around come around you
All you really gave, you really gave back was hatred

I gave you my all back then
Whenever you needed me
You're lies they cut through my skin whenever I reach For you, for you, for you..

I'm not like you
I don't back stab
My dear you should be my best friend

Sorry if I never call like you did
And you know, you know
You don't really have to
I try to come around come around you
All you really gave, you really gave back was hatred

I gave you my all back then
Whenever you needed me
You're lies they cut through my skin whenever I reach For you, for you, for you..

And anything for you my friend

2009-06-09T05:37:00.000-07:00

im tired of livin in life full of hatred and hypocrisy..

hari ini hari sial

2009-06-07T09:47:00.000-07:00

dalam satu hari ni byk benda buruk da terjadi kat aku..
first time masok clas d aku da didajalkan oleh dak2..
balik bilik gado ngan roomate plak..
td kuar makan terserempak ngan mamat tue,die bley bwat bodo kat aku..langsung xtego..
ni da sejam lebih cari topic tok term paper pun x jumpa2..
esok nak puasa makanan tok sahur xbeli..memang bodo..
ntah pe lagi nk jadi mlm ni aku pun xtau..
harap2 xdela bende yg menyakitkan ati jd lg sblm tdo nie..

setinggi-tinggi penghargaan

2009-06-06T11:46:00.000-07:00

walaupun lambat aku nk gak post..huhu

di kesempatan ini aku ingin mengucapkan setinggi-tinggi tahniah dan syabas kepada rakan2 ku yang tersangatlah berani dan mempunyai tekad yang kuat untuk memecahkan rekod baru dengan menceroboh kolej kediaman perempuan tepat pada pukul 3.30am pd hari jumaat 5 jun 2009..
aku salute kat korang.
da final sem kat uitm merbok korang wat kerja gila nie..
tapi sayang kita tak sempat lepak2 n ngobrol2..
kalu tak lagi best wey..
pape pun CONGRATZ wey..
love u guyz..hahaha

NEVER

2009-06-04T09:01:00.000-07:00

LELAKI rata-ratanya semua sama..
dah bertahun2 x contact tiba2 contact n menyatakan hasratnya untuk kembali bersama.
time nie mule la sume madah pujangga n puisi yg kalu sebelum nie x penah gune skang dgunakan dgn sebaik mungkin untuk menawan semula hati yang dah pernah dilukai..
memang harapan la aku nak terima balik..

p/s: simpanla hasrat anda itu untuk masa2 akan datang okay??itu pun kalu aku masih ingat kat ko.satu je permintaan yg sgt mudah untuk difahami.STAY AWAY FROM ME.jgn cuba nk call or msg aku lg..

2009-04-29T04:06:00.001-07:00

i miss him lol..;-(

2009-04-22T12:53:00.000-07:00

masok ari ni da bape ari aku tak berhubung ngan dia..
bapak sedeyh sial..adui la..;-(

nape die???

2009-04-12T08:38:00.001-07:00

arinie aku dpt brita yg aku xtau nk ckp cmane..sedeyh ke kesian ke geram ke..aku sendri pown xtau..tp yg penting mmg bende nie mengganggu pikiran aku coz aku susah nk berhubung dgn die dah..adui..

to whom it may concern:
napela skang nie bru nk wat bende x senonoh nie??bkn ke final nk dekat da??n lg satu,cube pk kalu bende nie terjadi kan diri anda sendri..pe perasaan anda??im sure you must be upset,miserable n mcm2 lg la kan????? so,lain kali sblm nk wat sesuatu pk la..

2009-04-11T10:12:00.000-07:00

akhirnya semua persoalan dan teka-teki selama ini terjawab..

final ohh final

2009-04-07T04:24:00.001-07:00

final is just around da corner,less than two weeks i guess
harap2 paper x susah mcm sebelum ni walaupun pd hakikatnya mmg akan susah(bodo btol aku ni.sah2la paper kali ni akan susah..da name pown part 2..huhu)
yet up till this moment i have nothing in my mind except this one guy..

NAPE NTAH??

munkies

2009-04-04T08:16:00.000-07:00

to my dearest munkies..

it's not that i dont wanna let you girls know bout this fella but i think it's not the time yet.
kalau dah sampai masa aku bgtau k..

promise;-)

p/s: sorry for being secretive..but i guess dlm hal nie je kowt..

solat istikharah

2009-04-04T07:53:00.000-07:00

perlu ke aku menunaikan solat istikharah??
atau masih terlalu awal untuk aku menunaikannya??

2009-03-29T10:48:00.000-07:00

sometimes what we have done, what we are doing n what we will do might hurt others...
but there's a time when we cant avoid because it happens naturally..

2009-03-26T11:25:00.000-07:00

everything is clear now..
no more misunderstanding, quarrel n silly attitudes..huhu
im relieved a bit..

hidup x lengkap tanpa masalah

2009-03-26T11:14:00.000-07:00

satu persatu masalah timbul..huh..
yg lame da settle dtg yg bru..
plg menyakitkan hati org tuduh kte bwat benda yg kte xbwat..
tujuan hidup bkn tok tmbh musuh tp tmbh kwn..
tp skang laen da jd..yela mungkin di mate org kte nie xbgs, gedik, over n mcm2 lg la..
tp kte ni kan manusia biasa,mane bley nk puaskan atie sume org..
bak kate org just be yourself..
so, kepada sesiapa yg berkenaan saya menyusun jari memohon MAAF atas kesalahan yg saya lakukan selama nie..

p/s: da letih nk pk sal benda2 remeh mcm nie..

im sorry...

2009-03-26T11:03:00.001-07:00

dearly friend...
im sorry for not telling you the truth..
and keep on giving you hope..
i know i shouldn't do this to you coz it hurts you..
I've tried to tell you the truth but im not willing to do so..
it might be unfair to you but i can't just help it..
what can i say is that just be yourself and you don't have to change for me..
coz you'll never be the same like him..

SORRY!!!!

2009-03-25T08:48:00.000-07:00

nobody knows im bleeding inside..

hang out with the fellas

2009-03-09T09:55:00.000-07:00

ari sabtu aritue aku kuar ngan ayam,dhiya,amru n amar g pav..that was my 1st tyme hang out wif them n i realy enjoyed it(kononnya la..) tue la gak 1st aku becakp ngan amr n amru n ternyata drg mmg kuat merapu..haha.nk d jdkan cta mlm tue aku tepakse blik ngan dorg amru amar coz ayam n dhiya menuju ke tpt laen.Dgan prasaan yg segan n malu(yela kn x pnh betego b4 nie) aku pown blik ikt bdk bedua tue..mule2 aku slh beli tkt train..smpai station tu,org tu ckp cmni'dik,train nie x g wangsa maju,kalu nk kene tuka train kt masjid jamek'.mmg aku akui tyme tue aku agak pucat..maklumla x penah smpai kt tpt tue..name je dok kl tp xtau tpt tue wujud..adui..pastu bley plak c amar ckp ngan aku jgnla nangis wey..padahal setitik pown air mate xde kowt..smpai plak kt masjid jamek da satu hal lg aku pusing2 cri train lg satu.. x cam marathon plak aku mlm tue..da la da lewat.sorg plak tue..elok2 bese 2ka due train mlm tue 3 train aku tuka..huh.cm cuti2 mlaysia plak.akhirnya tpt jam 11 mlm aku smpai ke station yg nak d tuju iaitu wangsa maju..dgn hati yg lega aku ,menadah tgn syukur kpdNYA sbb smpai gak aku akhirnya..hehe.watever it is,i realy had a great tyme hang out wif u guys even though korg menyesatkan aku.huhu.

p/s: amar, aku x nangis eyh mlm tue n lg satu may i borrow ur hair straightener plz????????????????(aku pown x bwk..huhu)

rejection is not that bitter..sumtymes it may be sweet as well coz u gonna remember it till the end...

2009-02-24T22:19:00.000-08:00

smlm adalah hari yg plg menyakitkan aku..i guess..aku da confront ngan hamba allah nie n ktorg da settlekan dgn care baek..mule2 mmg susah nk bukak cte pastue aku try gak..menebalkan muke ku yg da sedia tebal..huhu...stlh bercerita pnjg..ktorg pown wat deal tok jd membe n frenship ktorg still close cm tyme mule2 knl...tp ade satu part yg wat aku teharu gle babi..die ckp cm nie"aku still hrp ko leh still msg aku n be my friend cm dulu..xde pape effect pn..bleh??"cube bygkan ape aku pk tyme tue..bpk sedeyh kowt..huhu..tp pape pown ktorg akan still jd kwn n hopefully lg rpt pas nie.n saat2 getir camnie wat aku tringat kt tuttt..i miss u badly...;-(

SPECIALLY DEDICATED TO MY BELOVED MUNKIES:
thanx 4 ur support..without da three of u i might not be this strong..n always remember i luv u guys..

THE END OF STORY..

ko nie mmg bley wat aku jd penasaran..

2009-02-23T09:58:00.000-08:00

gni cte die,td ptg pas blik dr clas law..kami berempat,da real munkies united cam bese jln pulang ke bilik..otw tue tesempak plak ngan bdk yg dette mmg fuck gle..pastue secare x sengaje aku tdgr geng2 die menyebut name tutt...tyme tue aku rase pelik.aku toleh blakang tgk mamat tue ngah tesengih cm kerang busok..nak d jadikn cte smpai skang aku pk sal bende tue..bodo btol an??n td..aku meneruskan investigation[ cam james bond la plak..haha] dan aku menjumpai satu bnda yg agak menyakitkan ati..aku mule resah gelisah..n kate dette tue tandenye aku still minat dak tue lg..tp aku x rase cam aku minat kt die sgt..huh..complicated sungguh cte nie..even smpai saat aku post blog nie pown aku maseh te pk btol ke pe yg aku nmpak???nk tau ending cte nie??tgu mlm sok plak..haha.aku nk tdo ni..sayonara......................................

bangge sekejap

2009-02-23T09:04:00.000-08:00

setelah lame aku menahan rase jelez kat tyqa n dette[yg da lame ade blog] akhirnya aku berjaya gak wat blog sendri...haha..n tok ari nie n ari seterusnye kan ku coretkan segala nukilan dan isi hati kt cnie..haha[ayat xbley bla kowt]huhu...